Good friends are like stars, you can’t always see them, but you know they are always there.
As I sit here on the green grass, facing the river and taking in the life around me, I can’t help but think of you Shannon. Today would have been your birthday and for me, it is a day of reflection. Sometimes I am able to face the days without you in my thoughts and sometimes you pop into my mind in sporadic moments.
I can’t believe it has been 4 months already since you left us here on earth and I still can’t really believe you have gone. Thinking of you brings back many memories, from when we first met at 17 years old. We were just teenagers unbeknown to what the future held. Just enjoying our days and just letting life flow.
Who knew that 15 years later, that I would be sitting here on a cold winters day, writing to you and even though at times I took for granted to have you around and in my life, right now I am so grateful to have met you, to have received the gifts and love you gave me throughout the years and to have crossed paths.
You were always so thoughtful, so kind and so considerate to other people and of course to me and it is something that I will never forget. A few weeks ago I opened my draw and took out a piece of paper that had been folded for quite a while, that the creases still showed as I opened it and re-read it. It was a poem, written for me, from the bottom of your heart explaining the love you felt for me.
It was beautiful, raw and honest and still brings a tear to my eye when I read it. You really were a humble man who deserved the world. One year on my birthday you presented me with a gift I still have hanging in my bathroom. A gift so thoughtful that it blew me away. You knew that Salvador Dali was my favourite artist and you went out of your way to find one of his paintings and put it on a canvas for me. Back then I was too young to know the meaning of the gift but right now as I write this and everytime I look at it, I am alot more wiser.
I was honoured and humbled to have spent your final day with you, to have sat on your hospital bed and watched the rain with you. To have relived past memories and spoke about the history between us and to have been one of the last people to have said goodbye. When I asked you if there was anyone else you had to see and you looked at me and said ‘ You were the last one, I am done now’ shivers went up my spine and I knew then it wasn’t going to be long.
24 hours later I received the tearful call from your mother, telling me what I already knew. That you had gone to be with the angels, that you were no longer in pain and that the Brain Cancer after 8 years had finally taken you. One thing I will never forget is the courage and resilience you had, as your days grew numbered. That you still managed to smile and laugh for your friends and family even though you knew the end was near.
I thank you Shannon for coming into my life, for giving me your friendship, authenticity and love. You will never be far from my thoughts and I promise that I will be living large and loving life for two. I know that if I ever need you, even though I cannot see you, you won’t be far away xo